Just got back home from the airport... The meeting ended at 6-ish... I started to feel moody near the end of the meeting... Feel quite bad for affecting them. Shared why I was feeling so moody and they prayed for me... Talked to Pat from one end of terminal 2 to the MRT station at the other end... Shared with her what I was afraid of.

I spent time with God from 7:30 to 9:30.. I could feel his presence, no doubt about that... But he wouldn't answer some of my questions... I wanted to know whether I should continue hoping or give up on her. I'm getting tired of this situation already. Feel like giving up on her... Maybe that would be good for me. Why should I care for her? If she wants to ruin her life, why should I even bother? She's soooo confused that it hurts me. Haha... Why do I love her? Its time to move on? Is it? Can I? Should I? God wouldn't tell me... I think I was speaking to Him in a rather disrespectful way at the airport... Because He ignored the question.

I think I'm like children playing hide-&-seek. They run to hide in a place where they cannot be found. After a few moments, they get bored and actually look for the seeker. I get restless after waiting a while and itch for some action... Thats why I get hurt again. Well... I'm very close to giving up... Its hardly been a month since I started the promise. Already there's so much drama. What have I learnt this month? Faith... Love... Truth... Trust... and Disappointment. The only thing I'm still lacking is patience.

Sigh... I just dropped my palm... The glass screen cracked and I can't select the buttons. Luckily I can still back up the info stored inside... Need a new palm.

Tears come just by reading the lyrics to to the song by Superchick. They're singing about God...

::: Lyric of the Day :::
Sometimes life brings more pain than we can bare alone
When hope is gone and I have no strength to stand on my own
When nothing helps there's nothing that I can do
You surround me and show me I belong to you

I belong to you
You're the one who will never let me down
Won't let me down
I belong to you

When love is gone there's no arms to run to anymore
I'm all alone there's no one for me to live for
Letting go of the things I've always clung to
That's when I need to feel that I belong to you